Crap#6 Subconsciously Unconscious

Everyone at some point of time in their lives would have had this feeling. If not already had, I am sure that they definitely will have it one day.You will hang out with people. You will party around, freak out and what not.If someone asks you what you did on the weekend, you will have lot of things to say about.I mean lot of objective things to speak about. But there is something in you, that tells youthat this is not what you want. That is, subjectively there is nothing you can talk about.Your inner core silently moans, which can make you feel lonely even though you are in a crowd of a million people. You will be normal with the people around you. But your inner core somehow doesn't feel uncomfortable with the surroundings, though there is nothing wrong in it.
That means your sole is unconscious of the happiness spread around you. It doesn't do it consciouly, but something tells it not to imbibe the happiness around it or resist it.
That is, you are subconsciouly unconscious.
There could be a lot of situations which bring out this feeling from you and some of them are:

Running with life for survival:
One point of view is that when you are growing in age, you are also expected to grow in some other aspects as well, such as financial status etc. These can be termed as incentives after which the entire mankind follows its ass off.These expectations can be stressfull sometimes. And this stress changes your thought process to a single-minded one, which is about exploring various ways of reaching your new goal, which is earning those incentives. So, you become too busy in your life, which makes you a mechanical person and so you don't enjoy anything in life. This was a bit materialistic view isn't it?

Resistance to change (due to nostalgia?):
Some say that when you stay in a place for a while, you get used to the people over there and you just happen to create your own world consisting of your own parameters to the joy of life. And when you come out of this comfort zone, there is definitely a difference between your parameters and the new people's paramters. This is a transient phase where you feel that you are not happy even though you are doing pretty much the same thing which you did with your old circle. There is nothing wrong with the new people, neither there is any with you. It is just the friction that one's mind has to face before a smooth transition into a new circle. But this is a temporary phase and as you get along with your new circle of people, this feeling slowly fades away.It doesn't fade away entirely, but atleast to an extent where you don't feel lost in your core anymore.